Hello…

I haven’t written in here in so long. I don’t know if anyone even still watches this journal.

I know I have no right, and I know that to even imagine forgiveness is beyond any reasonable consideration. I just… I need time.

And you can’t imagine how I’ve missed you… you all. I don’t know, I hadn’t planned to stay away. I was just going to drive to get a little space, and to think. But one thing led to another, and I found myself … lost. And I didn’t call because I was scared. I didn’t write, because every time I tried, all I did was loose myself.

I’m only writing in here now, because I’m scared for my home. And those I love so very much… I hope Reesyn is safe. With all these attacks of ‘Subsiders’. I know that many in our town will keep the others safe; I know its likely one of the safest places in all the world. Because we take care of each other. Lycan, Vampire… Witch. I don’t matter.

Mostly I’m writing because … I want to fix things. Kali… Ohhh… my dear baby girl. I know Markus called you, a few months ago. And then I disappeared from LA. It wasn’t because I didn’t want to see you. I’m in Europe currently. I’ll explain everything, I promise. I know you must have told everybody. The band, and Nicky, at the least I imagine. Tell them I’m sorry. I love you… sooo much. I’m scared.. And I’m sorry. It’s not fair, I didn’t wanta be like Lucas. And I don’t blame you if you hate me. Cause I hate me. I wish I could just die, cause it’ll make all the wrongs I’ve done… right. Although it won’t bring back my mother. But, it’ll at least help.

I have to go. But I wanted to write this. It was long overdue, I think.

Name/Nickname: Amy/Ames
Email: Childofdarkness01@yahoo.com
CDJ/Character Development Journal: thelocalnut
Personal OOC Journal: Ask me!
Timezone: EST
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[MSN] Clypso01@hotmail.com
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